Trey Parker and Matt Stone said this: "Love isn't a decision. It's a feeling. If we could decide who we loved, it would be much simpler, but much less magical."

I wish we could decide who we care for; it would make the separation part that much easier. I have been trying to talk myself out of these feelings I have had for someone for the past while and it has proven unsuccessful. I have also tried to overlook these feelings and push my thoughts to the side but, the more I try the less it works. I know that it is good to feel this terrible gut-wrenching pain every now and again, but right now this is straight-up agony.

I am left wondering just how much longer these feelings will linger. I loved that beautiful, hot feeling I once felt in my chest, but now I am left only with the stale, bitter taste of smoke in my mouth. I don’t want to be muddled and befuddled, unhinged and confused; I would like to be filled with resolve, finally allowing truth to be truth.