And This Is What I Do In My Room

I've come to realize I now need more quiet time with God than I used to. I am giving back to Him all of the blessings he has given me. I want to get to know Him better; I know His words and his Grace, but I do not know Him so well.

I think I might have figured out a very small part of His plan for me, but there is still so much to sort out. Maybe God has made me struggle so much because He knows how strong I can be, and that maybe I am supposed to be an example for others. If I become the best that I can be, instead of playing that small pitiful being I've become, and share the love that God has given me with Him and to others my suffering may end. Perhaps it was not my faith He was testing, but that I was unfocused and needed that push to walk before God instead of crawling.