Honestly, I love you.

New Year's Eve makes me think about where I am in this storybook of life; is it the beginning, or the end? Hopefully closer to the beginning rather than the end, but wherever I am at in this walk, I am thankful for every moment spent with you guys. The times we laughed until it hurt, the times we cried because we hurt, the lessons you’ve taught me, and the gifts you’ve given me will never go unnoticed or become forgotten. I would relive every broken heart and bone (I can say that now :)) because where I am at right now, is exactly where I want to be. It has taken a lot of struggling and fumbling along the way to learn that every day is a chance for new beginnings, and to become better for myself and you guys.

Though we all make our own choices and our paths are not always straight, we all end up the same in the end; it is remembering to enjoy the messes we create in the middle that is called life. I don’t know what I did, or who I was in my previous life to deserve every wonderful person and thing I have in my present life, but I know at the end of the day I get down on my knees and thank God for you. I pray that this is the year for each of you, that your dreams come true, that your struggles and strife become victories and those battles are easily conquered. I am only now, 27 years into it, just beginning to understand my purpose in life, though it may be too complex to comprehend and I don’t think anyone could ever truly understand the specifics of His plan, I am merely allowing God’s hand to guide my way.

Though I don’t spend a lot of time with you anymore, and my phone calls to you are few and far between you are never far from my thoughts. No matter how much time passes between our get-togethers, and Skype dates, please take heart you’re always with me. I am who I am because of you, and for that I am grateful. Thank you.

Simply, I am asking that whatever you do, and wherever you go this year, to take a moment or two to care for yourself. That life is indeed very fragile; it is a gift and can be taken from us at any second. I do not nearly say it enough, but I do truly love you guys and thank you for loving me back as I make countless blunders in my journey.

Happy New Years