Hooks In.

During my holiday I had a lot of time to ruminate about where my life is, the possible directions it could go, and which direction I want to head.

During this time I decided that I am going to start seeing boys again. I like taking care of people, and now feel that I can take care of myself and other people at the same time; not like before when I put myself last.

This is a huge step for anyone, but it doesn't feel as scary for me now. The possibility of getting hurt is still there, but I don't seem to mind so much this time. I have managed to waste no time at all, and happen to be going out tonight however; I might have to cancel because I have no idea what to wear… A dress would be too much, but jeans and a top of some sort will not suffice. Being a girl is challenging.