Beyond All Reasonable Doubt - Colin and Jeannine Turner

A Search for Truth
..."It stems from the perception that the world is full of deception - nothing and no one should be trusted: accept only the bare facts. Such notions, arising from over-exposure to all that is negative, false and misleading in life, often lead to disillusionment, distrust of one's fellow beings, unhappiness and eventually, dispair. In a blue funk and unable to answer the most pressing questions being presented in a life that has suddenly and devastatingly become devoid of meaning, we have arrived at a time of life-threatening crisis. Meaning and purpose for life cannot be found. Where and to whom can one turn? Who can one trust to find the right answers? These are the questions not easily answered, and they represent the rocks on which many a ship of life has foundered. It was in such an inner state of termoil that I found myself in 1964.

I find it hard to express in words exactly how I really felt at this particular time in my life; in retrospect, I was 'looking through a glass darkly'. I also felt that I was sometimes looking at what was going on around me as if I were a detached observer - being there and involved but also feeling that somehow I wasn't really present. I found I literally had to 'shake' myself back into reality at times. This was rather disturbing and not a good feeling at all! It was undoubtedly, a time of crisis. ..."


Honestly, many times in my life I have found myself thinking these thoughts exactly. Even to this day I often find myself thinking that my life is devoid of meaning and purpose, often things are dark, and I am completely alone in this universe. Many times over I have typed out simuar blog entries but never have published it - I thought that if I never posted it, I didn't really feel it. I also never wanted to look back and be reminded of these feelings of despair. I feel that I can't voice my thoughts to you, or anyone for that matter, simply because I think that you wouldn't understand me. Daily, I am reminded of the fragility of life, and it pains me.

I got the pleasure of speaking with Colin Turner today, and before meeting him, I thought only I held these kinds of feelings. It turns out I might not be alone after all. I often wonder why God puts certain people in my path - what His plan for me really is. It's as if Colin Turner knew in some way that I needed his help. He gave me a copy of his book "Beyond All Reasonable Doubt," and I highly recommend that you read it. You can only purchase it at Mac's Fireweed Books on Main, as it is self-puplished. I've read the first half and already my emotional flood gates have burst; my outlook has changed. I started reading it at Baked after our conversation and had to leave before finishing my coffee because I was overcome with emotion.



I don't think there has been a time in my life where I felt the presence of God more than I felt it through Colin Turner. He gave me his e-mail address and telephone number and asked me to use it if I had any questions or just felt like talking, and you can bet that I will.