excuse me while I update

It has been my goal to overcome my timidness for quite some time. It is a challenge. I’ve been attempting to make new friends, but the fact that I feel as if I have nothing of importance to say when the opportunity arises holds me back. At times I feel I could possibly be the most boring person on the face of this planet; who’d actually want to listen to what I have to say? Which I know is untrue, my mother says so. So, I planned on getting over this fear by forcing myself into places and situations I typically would view as “unsafe”, which I have done twice in the last week!

Someone asked me to coffee, so I suggested that we play crib. Seeking safety, I thought this suggestion would eliminate any awkward silent moments if we couldn’t think of anything else to say. As we played, I noticed that between hands he was sending text messages to his other friends, delaying our game –which annoys me. At one point he mentioned to me that he was on facebook updating his status while I was shuffling the deck.

If you know me, you’d know that I have a tendency to tell-it-like-it-is when something bothers me, so I told him my thoughts and politely excused myself. I am not so sure why some of us can’t seem to separate ourselves from the digital word for a short hour or two. It isn’t like we have go-go-gadget phones that will self destruct at any moment. I admit that I do have a love for facebook and my blog site, but I can draw the line and have a normal conversation or a night out without having to check in, especially while meeting someone for the first time. All I am saying is that we should go back to valuing face-to-face connections and leave our cell phones in our high-tech cars while we sip lattes and allow the rest of the world to wait while we experience life.