souls wasted

Some days I feel like my life has been, and will continue to be a waste. I often wonder how my typical work day spent doing data entry makes this world a better place. I am most certain that "Tab, Tab, F1" has never moved anybody's soul. Don't get me wrong, it isn't that I am in a dark place in life right now, or that I am turning Emo on you; it is that I believe God put us here for an exact purpose, and I don't think I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. It is unbearable to think that I still have over thirty years of this Tab, Tab, F1 nonsense left.

I need more than this

I feel like I need to inspire people, or at the very least make them think. My first year at university was in education. I was to major in calculus and minor in chemistry, I quit because I couldn’t stand being away from home any longer. Many days I wish I would have stuck it out, dealt with my loneliness and the constant yearning for my mother. Being nearly 3,000 Kilometers away from home and fresh out of high school I thought I would make a great calculus teacher; I wanted to shout my passion for numbers to the world. Nothing has changed in the last nine years; I still love numbers and the many crazy formulas that you would never use in your normal daily life, but mostly, I liked that it always worked out in the end, even if you needed three pages to come up with the answer. I love that the answer is always what it is, and it can’t be any other way. If only life was a little more like math.


I was reminded of these two verses:
- Do not neglect the gift that is within you [1 Timothy 4:14]
- You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s whom [Psalm 139:13]

I know that he has made me unique and has designed me for a certain purpose; I just hope it wasn’t Tab, Tab, F1 (Even though, I know someone has to do it).