Mind Games

I’m going on a date tonight, yes, me on a date. This is not just any old date; this is a date with a girl. I haven’t given it much thought until this very moment. I mean she is a she, and I am a she! “Interesting.” You say. You’re thinking “Finally, a blog worth reading.” Don’t get too excited just yet, the date hasn’t happened yet. But I can tell you this; I am nervous. Maybe I have the wrong idea about her, or maybe she has the wrong idea about me. Maybe, just maybe it will go over well and we will have a grand ole time. At this point I am up for anything.

I’ve had a recent conversation with a close friend of mine about the ins and outs of first dates. According to my friend you don’t want to “come off to strong”, nor do you want to play “too hard to get”; it’s all about the happy medium…whatever that is. My friend has encouraged me to play these mind games with her. I left thinking, “Okay, if that’s all there is to this dating thing, then I’ve got this one in the bag”, I felt really good. I had planned on going with the flow but to remain off limits just enough to make her work for it, just like my friend had advised. After sleeping on it, I realized this was awful advice. In many ways I hope he isn’t the type of person who follows their own advice. (Because I am into him… :) )

Are these games not tired? If it is a game then we already know someone has to win and someone has to lose. We have already set ourselves up for failure. What has become of society if we have to limit the number of complements we pay, or bottle up or emotions because we might seem too interested. Isn’t that the point, to show interest? I believe we should express our thoughts and hand out as many complements as possible; we are only here for a short time, why regret not saying something?

In relationships, friendly or otherwise, I think we should lay it all out there, put everything we have to offer on the table. Stop denying and start living. No hiding, no nonsense, no mind games, this is me, this is who I am and I have nothing to hide. If they don’t like it, leave. Honestly what do we have to lose? Before meeting her, my life has been wonderful, I am happy; I’ve got the best friends a girl could ask for. If it doesn’t work and nothing becomes of this (other than this long boring blog), I will at least know, I poured my heart into it and I was true to myself and her. I will learn from my mistakes, as hard as it is, and take this experience with me on my next journey.

Wish me luck on my date!